Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year!

Random Acts of Kindness

Do you know...I ♥ random acts of kindness!

My parents (Mum) wanted me to get a treadmill for physio. because she thinks it will be good for me. So we enquired about one that somebody was selling - and asked to check it was in good condition because of what we wanted it for. The amazingly KIND lady, emailed and... said that I can have it for free because of what it is for.

I'm not going to take it for free, but that is SOO KIND!! Don't you think?

So REMEMBER...No act of KINDNESS, However small - is EVER wasted ♥.

Would it matter?

That First Sign...

"Nothing fixes a thing so intensely in the memory as the wish to forget it."

I remember that first 'sign' ; It's ingrained in my memory, like a fossil in a stone.

I was a 'grade A' student, 'Gifted and Talented' they said. I done well in every exam, I done well in every test. I got out, what I put in.

Until one day..

Business Studies. A lesson I thrived in, A lesson I enjoyed. I was headed for the big guns, headed for top grades - success.

Until then..

The Test. A piece of paper in front of me, A pen in my hand. I could hear scribbling and scrawling all around me. The clock was ticking.

My head - Empty.

I sat, and I sat. I racked my brains - nothing was coming, but I'd worked hard. I'd prepared. The bell rings.

My page - Empty.

Questions flew through my head, like a tornado through a storm.

What had happened? Why was my mind blank? What was going on?

But it was the 'sign' .. That first 'sign'.

If only I knew, what lay ahead.

Life isn't always tied with a bow...

..but it's still a G I F T !

There's no way to know what might have been.

Sure I think about you now and then
But it's been a long, long time
I've got a good life now, and I've moved on
So when you cross my mind...

 

Like you did this weekend. I saw how you recovered - and think about
what might have been,
but there's no way to know
what might have been.

I can walk, I can talk but you lay there, stripped bare..And I try not to think
what might have been.

I had the strength to pull through, return to myself..but then there's you. You're not the same, but who's to blame - How did I get this far? You can't even stand at the bar. And I look and you, and try not to think..
what might have been.

We're two parallels, though we walked a similar path. I was so lucky to get here, and now I shed a tear - I look at you and think,
what might have been.

But we're both so strong, neither of us wrong. With a smile on our face, continuing life at fast pace. But it's hard not to think -
what might have been.

So try not to think about
what might have been
Cause that was then
And we have taken different roads
We can't go back again
There's no use giving in
And theres no way to know

What might have been.

Lyrics from Lonestar - What Might Have Been.

This is like a Flashback...

*Red Alert* Flashback *Red Alert

This is like a flashback,
This is like a bad dream,
This is like all the things you can fit inside a memory - Scary.


Building up. uP. UP.                          Not again.                            Please.


This is like a flashback
Flashback.
This is like a flashback
Flashback.

The same familiar sign.  The same familiar pain. One side of my face - burning. Burning. I can't, I can't go back to that place.  I've got so much to live for, oppurtunities to fulfil. Don't take it away from me again?

Why didn't I realize I was fighting for my life?
Woaaaah, Woaaaah!
Why can't I realize I was fighting for my life?
Woaaaah, Woaaaah!

I'm not sure I could fight this fight. I'm not sure I could go back to that place. I'm not sure I could lose my independance again. I'm not sure I could handle the looks, the stares.

This is like a flashback
Flashback.
This is like a flashback
Flashback.

Today, I thought I was returning to that place. Returning to those same four walls, that dreaded distinctive smell. It was a scare - boy I'm glad it didn't take me there.

I'm coming round and now my vision is so clear,
If I could change my state of mind, then I would disappear
The dread I get from you is something I can't chance,
And I guess you won't slip away, without a second glance.

God is good. Keep me in this 'paradise' ?

This is like a flashback
Flashback.
This is like a flashback
Flashback.

I'm coming round and now my vision is so clear,
I'm glad this flashback - disappeared.

Edited Version of Calvin Harris - Flashback.